I am totally sick... again! kind of par for the course for me during the winter, but I am so over it and tired of being sick! So, I missed SPT this week which if I would have done it - it would have been about me cutting 6 inches off my hair and getting rid of my highlights and now it looks red and purple - there is nothing Pink about this situation. Note to self do not make dramatic changes when you are not feeling well or get your feelings hurt.
I would have also wrote about Mardi Gras celebration only consisted of giving my neighbor some Red Beans and Rice and Annie Kate wearing beads to school. You do the best you can do when you are sick. Although Annie Kate is very sad about the lack of King Cake that night. Who knew she cared.
I am sad that i have not written about the fun details about our first Sunday back in our ward. The girls were so excited! We told Caroline that morning that we were going to go to the church by the school and she was surprisingly excited. I never thought she would really get what that meant.
I had to snap a photo of the girls walking down the sidewalk to church. It was a walk that took a year of work to appreciate.
Church was wonderful and great! Everyone spoke of the life of our passing prophet Gordon B. Hinckley. Sunday school was just amazing and wonderful to come to church and just soak.
On another note :
One woman shared her sadness of walking in a room in her home and seeing it empty and is sad that all of her kids are grown up and encouraged young moms to enjoy every moment of those kids. She should have ended that with and "kristi that was for you!" I feel like this past week i have been whispering "grow up fast" in their ears at night. That was worth the whole day... well maybe not.
Then I walk into the foyer to go to Relief Society and there are two women that I have not seen in a year a sitting on the couch on the other side of the room and one yells out "oh my Kristi are we pregnant?" my heart sunk. The foyer was empty and i had no choice but to walk to her and address the question i get asked at least every 6 months since I have been married. I am giving the gritting my teeth smile and say, "do I look pregnant" and she says "well are you?" I say nope and I can't believe you think I look pregnant, since you last saw me i started running and even ran a marathon. "What you ran a marathon?" her surprise was worse than thinking I was pregnant. Then she says, "don't worry I carry all my fat in front too"
At this point i could take no more. So I slowly glided to the door of Relief Society smiling. She said, "kristi did I offend you?" I hold up my fingers about an inch apart and say ,"yep just a little bit!"
I walked into R.S. and there was one of my favorite people smiling as the door greeter. I needed a door greeter today. I looked at her started spilling tears and said, "someone just asked me if i was pregnant?" She didn't say anything but her eyes said, "no you don't, come in, we love you!"
i went to the back, cried a bit more and then I started feeling bad for the woman who said that to me and was worried about how she must have been feeling. She never came into RS and he whole time I was worried it was because she felt so bad. The whole meeting i felt like i had an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other whispering
"oh go out there and tell her you forgive her very insensitive comment"
"she better sit out there because is she comes in her I am going to lose it on her"
I tried to "get over it" but made a quick exit from the building with my family. But honestly it has affected me all week - which to show you how fragile my body can be is that stress can so throw me in a tail spin like this.
I have learned that the reason hurtful comments are so hurtful is because they have a little bit of truth to them so it is really hard for me to get mad as someone who is saying it. The fact it was an inappropriate question still sits on the table. But if i had rock hard abs the question would not even bother me, i would have lifted up my shirt and said, "are you kidding me?" I have for sure gained some of my non marathon training body back and it is so sad and this is why Pace is my word of the year. I don't want to get too frustrated with my slow efforts.
But if I may take this as a teaching opportunity I am sending out the interblog memo that I seemed to have received but so many have not.
Please consider yourself informed and spread the word!
To: All Women
Cc: who am i kidding everyone
From: Everything Pink
RE: Don't ever...
Don’t ever, ever ask a woman that you have not seen in over a year if she is pregnant! Don’t ever, ever ask a woman that you have not seen in a day if she is pregnant. Just don’t ask!
But with this being said, I will totally love and forgive this woman. One of our first Sunday's when we moved here a girl came up to me and said, "I am so happy to see someone with big calves not afraid to wear shorter skirts" And she became one of my greatest friends.- so maybe these experiences are a way for me to bond with people.