Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Before I go to bed.

It is 12:15 am and I am off to get some much needed sleep.

Just when I think I am in total control of my life and have everything in check, I take on one more thing that is my tipping point.

If there are any that read this blog and think some day she is going to crack well feel free to say, "I told you so" in the comment box.

My head is spinning. I have done more today that I would often do in a week, but still feel like I have not done anything.

The Pink Christmas envelopes are coming right along, thanks to my sweat shop workers, Anne and Jeff.

We made 24 General Conference Kits for the Young Women and I delivered most of my batch.

I visited one of my YW who had a birthday and took her her favorite breakfast cereal.

I revisited one of my other YW who had a birthday on Sunday and I decorated her door at 11pm the night before with 50 darling scalloped embossed birthday signs, only to find out today I did it on the wrong street, wrong house.

I helped Annie Kate get her violin for school at the darling violin shop.

I watched Sally Jane pee on a stack of 50 Pink Christmas profiles - oh that was a low point.

I woke up at 3:00 am thinking of my Young Women and their trials and struggles and could not get back to sleep. I read the scriptures in search to find peace.

Gave antibiotics to all my sick kids.

I thought about how I should be running today to get ready for the marathon I am running in 10 days.

I started a new blog today that is amazing, (thanks to my new partner) but since I didn't post I will keep it under wraps until I do.

All I could think about was that one of the gals I visit teach is also having a birthday and I didn't call or send a card.

So, yes even Everything Pink gets overwhelmed. No worries about calling for outside help. Today is the reason I picked the word PACE as my word of the year. Little by little I will finish every project. I will find peace for my worries and slowly lose the birthday guilt (oh ya didn't call my brother in law either) I will remember this night when I think of saying yes to another project and be OK with saying no.

Tomorrow will be better.
Ahh sleep.


Bethie said...

Just breathe! It is so totally okay to say No!

Birthday guilt is quite the nasty disease. Just remember that you can't do every birthday, every year. Be pleased with the ones you can get to!! Why not pick a handful each year and alternate??? Maybe that might lessen the pressure a bit.

Hang in there! I love your Pink Christmas blog!

aka What's Her Name

Apricot Tree said...

Night Night:) Get that much needed rest! I can't believe your starting another blog, I'm just trying to start my first, lol. Can't wait to see it, but don't rush it, you have enough going on!
- Cindy

Lauralee said...

oh kristi..
I hope you sleep well tonight.. and good luck tomorrow picking it back up! you can do it!

Jill said...

What in the world...Sally Jane peed on a stack of Pink Christmas profiles, how did that happen? I can't imagine.

I'm cracking up about you decorating the wrong door on the wrong house, that's too funny.

I'm glad you're cutting yourself some slack and remembering to "PACE" yourself!

Cecilia said...

Wow, I'm tired just by reading about your day!

I feel the same way sometimes...It's so hard to say no!

I hope you get a good night of sleep :)

Tasha said...

Love you kbc!

momof3crazykids-Val said...

I totally understand.

Becca said...

As weird as this may sound - I'm so glad I'm not the only one that has days like that . . . or overloads (even on all good things). My husband always reminds me to 'reduce and simplify' but I have a hard time - if I'm going to do it, I want to do it right all the way. I'm slowly learning to find that balance in between :) It's really a journey not a one day decision. Good luck on your journey as well!

tootie said...

I will say a pray for you! Hang in there!

Sharon C. said...

PACE is the word, try to remember!!! You will need to back off and take a look -- you do not need to do it all -- that is what advisers and counselors are there to help you with your incredibly wonderful ideas. You are truly amazing and loved by many.

Christine said...

Hey I'm a long time "lurker" and I have to say I feel your pain. I'm a new Relief Society President, one month in that has felt like a year. I'm in the midst of my first funeral, first Super Saturday and have already filled more than a handful of food orders. You feel for those who are suffering and want to help them but it's always a struggle to not rob your family from what they need too.

I'm still finding the balance. I'm sure you will too.

I'm learning that I can't fix people's lives and I can pretty much only do so much. So if I'm helping over here I can't feel guilty about the person I couldn't help right now over there. Just do the best you can and keep your sweet family first!

By the way I love your blog!

sista # 2 said...

Ahhh.I can relate to almost all of
these, so I won't say told ya so!

Liz said...

Hang in there Kristi... and maybe you should check ebay for costumes this year??

Charity said...

Been there, am still there, pacing away...very excited about the new blog...keep us all posted

michelle said...

Oh my, Kristi, just reading that list made me feel like my blood pressure was rising. Good luck pacing yourself!

Missy :o) said...

I'm sorry that you are overwhelmed. I wish I could do something. Hope you get some sleep. (((hugs)))

denise said...

Take a deep breath and breathe! I'll say a little prayer for you.

Deanna Payne said...

The more I get to know you the more I think we are so much alike.

Price Cream Parlor said...

Hang on! That is what I always say to myself! Just ....hang on!

Juli said...

Someone (H.B.Lee?) said "If you can't do everything, just do something." My moto, since I never get everything done. But I think you can do everything. General Conference kits? Did I see that last year. What a great idea.

wende said...

oh man, i have a love/hate with this kind of day. love because i get so much done, hate because it sucks to be overwhelmed.

you get an A for effort pink lady! and effort is all that really counts.

Elizabeth said...

You are sharing so much love!
Hope you caught up on sleep.

Kat said...

Good luck with everything! Little by little has been my new motto too. :) It is the only way I am keeping myself sane in a crazy house. LOL I know that even though my house doesn't look immaculatly clean like in the magazines, that I am slowly but surely plugging away and will some day have an organized mess. Ha ha ha. Good luck with everything you do. You are amazing! And I bet your Young Women LOVE you!

Michelle @ A Happy Heart said...

I just love your dedication to your calling Kristi. They couldn't have picked a better person to be these young ladies yw president. All those sleepness nights and worry about your girls won't be for not - you'll see! Take care - and did you run the marathon yet?